. correcting my grammar .

Wappa # 6 :
" May "
12 days
15 posts
Page 28 in my journal

Mood : <%> Ravla

It was hard to think of a new mood for every post ..
that'd be why I stopped after 'Ravla'
[notice, it was capitalized
even when I didn't capitalize things ..
he's just that important]

My profile is definitely not updated daily anymore ..
Ahahaha

Man, that was a cute palatera grrl ..
Bella like reverse check vanilla

In other news ..
no one cares
(title types with one finger)

I wrote a song about this too ..
it is named "One Thing"

Hmm ..
I don't recall what we were talking about that day,
but I have a pretty good guess ..

Man, I don't even remember
what this was all about ..

-= IF ONLY =-

May included titles from :
[May the month,
so don't even think of correcting my grammar]

"Without Me" by Eminem
"The Mummy Returns"
Baskin Robbins (why the extra B ?)
"Les Miserables"
"Jackie Chan Adventures"
"Romeo and Juliet"
Eighth grade Computers class
.. among other sources

Heeyyy ! Comments !

fold it up and put it in my pocket, save for dreamland

Registrated today ..

I'm in Musical Productions,
my locker number is 283 ..

While I'm wasting my time trying to find
some significance in that number,
you should go ahead and do your homework .

After all,
there is only one week left ..

To me,
a friend is someone to whom you tell
secrets that no one else knows ..

She is still in my dreams ..

No Score toDay ..
Go ask Ze,
I'm sure he has something
for you to think about .

. you notice something new .

Score of the Day :
I scored 10400 points
on Zookeeper ..
can you beat me ??

Scott, is a life saver .
[ Comma splices, are fun XD
That's not Mrs. Scott,
but Scott Chao;
whom by the way left Oxford :[ ]

What are words worth ?

Trust is hard to gain,
and hard to recognize
once you've gained it ..

Guilt has overcome me ..

My mom told me to stop blogging
and get serious ..

Excuuuse me ??
My writing isn't serious ?
My life isn't serious ?

Mom, if you're reading this
like you say you are,
just ..
GAHH !!

.. whatever ..

" All I need from you is you "
~ Disarray ~

In the end,
every story is a love story .

Rough Overview of Yesterday :

• Bigfoot Rapids
• Wilderness Scrambler
• Perilous Plunge, twice
• Log Ride
• Jaguar!
• Dragon Swing
• Ghostrider
• Perilous Plunge, twice

• Lunch ~ Little Caesar's, yay
• Ghostrider, twice
• Perilous Plunge
• Nature Center
• met up with Tim, Will, and Matt
• Bigfoot Rapids
• Bumper Cars
• Perilous Plunge, twice
• La Revolucio'n

Fun fun .

Saw Hoodwinked again .
Every time you watch that movie,
you notice something new ..

Like this time,
I noticed I got my quote wrong ..
and the Wolf's shirt says 23

I think if I read Ultima first,
I might have liked TFA better ..

" Now red is blue
Doesn't make much sense but
Red is blue
Messing with your head now
Red is blue
.....
" Now red is blue
What was near is far now
Red is blue
Like a falling star and
Red is blue "
~ Ben Folds ~
.. Listen to the whole song

~ Mr . BoOmBaStIc ~
.. Sorry, it's stuck in my head XD

. once or twice a year .

Yesterday was fun .
Shannon and Greg and Carter came over;
as well as Grandma and Uncle Johnny,
whom we only see once or twice a year ..
hooray for family reunions !

Today should be fun too .
I'm going to Knott's again,
this time with just Ben and Scott ..
and Bella

.. While you're waiting ..

Score of the Day :
I scored 2600 points
on the Turtle Bridge ..
can you beat me ??
( Extra life every 1500 )

. influenced countless people .

Ice cream .. yummm

One year ..
and I still have the dollars

Two years ..
and I still have the charms

Three years ..
and I still have the Skittles

And Lisa Gray ..
I didn't know Chris played DDR ?

I'm playing DDR again ..
I can own everyone at that ..
but too bad I can't dance

Dance .. has influenced countless people,
especially me XD

" Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes "

~ Kelly Clarkson ~

" Sometimes it's hard to know where I stand,
It's hard to know where I am,
Well maybe it's a puzzle I don't understand.
Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm
stranded in the wrong time
where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme, a soundbite.

" Is it any wonder I'm tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?
Oh, these days, after all the misery made,
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed? "

~ Keane ~

something d3ad on the road to Tucumcari

I finished Bless Me, Ultima ..
I'm not guna write it all for you this time,
but just know that I loved this book .

Especially from Chapter 17 on,
it is everything my blog is about ..

Agnostic curiosity ..

. Poor Florence .

It was much better than Things Fall Apart for sure ..
but maybe just because I had more to relate it to ?

Some memorable quotes :

" I think if there is a he11
it's just a place where you're left all alone,
with nobody around you.
Man, when you're alone you don't have to burn,
just being by yourself for all of time
would be the worst punishment.... "
~ 188 ~

" There seemed to be no one to turn to for solace.
And when the dying Christ cried,
'My God, my God, why hast Thou forsaken me?'
the words seemed to drive through to my heart
and make me feel alone and lost in a dying universe. "
~ 199 ~

" Everything I believed in was destroyed.
A painful wrenching in my heart made me cry aloud,
'My God, my God, why have you forsaken me!' "
~ 233 ~

34 pages apart ..
this is ingenious writing

And as for the numbers ..
I don't believe in coincidences

.....

Hey, it turns out I was right after all ..

Welcome, Rudy Wellsand;
you're right about my title ..
I'll be sure to read what you have to say,
but I'll have to get a Bible first ..

a little weak, a little empty

Wappa # 5 :
" April "
1 day
2 posts
Pages 24-27 in my journal

This post is no longer my longest
( no pun intended )
but numbers are certainly still quite creepy ..

I actually didn't post at all in April,
because Blog*Spot wasn't working for me
so I had to wait until May ..

But April definitely deserves its own Wappa post,
no matter what the circumstances ..

This just feels a little weak ..
a little empty ..

but it's all right,
that's how life is

right after REM

Wappa # 4 :
" March "
3 days
7 posts
Pages 21-23 in my journal

March 23rd .
[ after a dejected month of no posts ]
4:21 in the morning .
A legend is born .

Well ..,
not exactly ..
but he sure is cute

Clever use of passive voice ..
Dirty little secrets ..
Losing at Minesweeper ..
Things haven't changed much

Sorry the links aren't working now,
I'm not sure how to get those back

March was the beginning of moods ..

It seems like just yesterday
I wrote the Numbers Game ..

My life is still going in circles ..
but I think it decides to oval sometimes

I wrote a song about this ..
it is quite fittingly named "Fed Up"

And the 17 circles are not a coincidence ..

The one was meant to double as a 1 and an I ..
and I still love the poem ..
Unlike most of my posts now,
it was completely spontaneous ..
There is a *slight* rhyme scheme ..

And still no comments ..

.....

MySpac3 . is just a very small piece of my life ..
And one of those pieces that I cannot control ..
It just stays there, unchanged ..

* I'm in love with your sister *

Greg got the job !
( This one, in case you missed it, fifth paragraph )
He'll teach 7th and 8th grade history ..
It will be .. different

So I skipped a day,
let's just pretend it never happened ..
It wasn't my fault anyway ..

it's a small world after all

Carter is five months old today ..

and there are exactly two weeks left
until the homework is due :O

" How do you wait for heaven ?
And who has that much time ?
And how do you keep your feet on the ground
when you know that you were born to fly ? "

I saw Myles yesterday ..
Yea, I practically hat3 his guts

O and Esther Chao ..
she can play piano ??

Ben has been telling me about his friend Scott Chao,
but I never realized it was the same one ..

They're going to Knott's on Monday ..
apparently Esther's never been ..

How can you live here and not go to Knott's ??

I guess now is a good time to note,
I seen Rachel Om and Jennifer Choi at the BP Library ..
not at the same time

Sorry if I didn't say hi

" Somebody on the next floor ..
Somebody on the morning train ..
Somebody at the coffee shop that you pass right by everyday ..
Somebody that you look at, but never really see ..
Somewhere out there is somebody "

My password also starts with 'bl' ..
so oftentimes when typing in blogspot.com,
I accid3ntally type in my password ..
Oops "D

[ EDIT : It's back to Wappa tomorrow .. ]

a little help on your essays ?

" The pain and sadness seemed to spread to my soul,
and I felt for the first time what the grown-ups call,
life's sadness.

" I wanted to run away,
to hide,
to run and never come back,
never see anyone again....
Oh it was so very hard.

" But oh, I was not alone....
We found a few others who were like us...
and part of our loneliness was gone....
We felt we belonged.

" We struggled against the feeling of loneliness
that gnawed at our souls and we overcame it;
that feeling that I never shared again with anyone "

~ 55 ~

" You are when you do not know...
but already you know too much....
You are until you understand...
and you will understand good and evil....

" Oh, where is the innocence I must never lose,
I cried into the bleak landscape in which I found myself.
And in the swirling smoke a flash of lightning struck....

" There in the land of the dancing plains and rolling hills,
there in the land which is the eagle's by day and the owl's by night
is innocence.
There where the lonely wind of the llano sang to the lovers' feat of your birth,
there in those hills
is your innocence.

" But that was long ago, I called.
I sought more answers,
but she was gone "

~ 66 ~

" Good is always stronger than evil.
Always remember that....
The smallest bit of good can stand
against all the powers of evil in the world
and it will emerge triumphant "

~ 91 ~

" I knew I had witnessed a miraculous thing....
And I thought...
and then a sudden illumination of beauty and understanding
flashed through my mind "

~ 105 ~

" It was unbelievable,
and yet it made a wild kind of sense!
All the pieces fitted....

" I felt weak and powerless
in the knowledge of the impending doom....

" I was saddened by what I had learned.
I had seen beauty,
but the beauty had burdened me with responsibility "

~ 111 ~

" I felt a searing pain spread through my body.
Oh please tell me which is the water that runs through my veins, I moaned;
oh please tell me which is the water that washes my burning eyes....

" Oh, I cried, please tell me.
The agony of pain was more than I could bear.
The excruciating pain broke and I sweated .

" There was a howling wind as the moon rose
and its powers pulled at the still waters of the lake.
Thunder split the air
and the lightning bursts illuminated the churning, frothy tempest.
The ghosts stood and walked upon the shore.

" The lake seemed to respond with rage and fury.
It ed with the laughter of madness
as it inflicted upon the people.
I thought the end had come to everything.
The cosmic struggle of the two forces would destroy everything....
The terrifying end was near.

" Then I heard a voice speak above the sound of the storm.
I looked up....

" The sweet water of the moon which falls as rain
is the same water that gathers into rivers and flows to fill the seas.
Without the waters of the moon to replenish the oceans
there would be no oceans.

" And the same salt waters of the oceans are drawn by the sun to the heavens,
and in turn become again the waters of the moon.
Without the sun
there would be no waters formed to slake the dark earth's thirst.

" The waters are one....
I looked into her bright, clear eyes and understood her truth.

" You have been seeing only parts, she finished,
and not looking beyond into the great cycle that binds us all.

" Then there was peace in my dreams and I could rest "

~ 112-3 ~

" It was good too,
because it allowed us to forget
what we did not want to remember "

~ 131 ~

" I felt free, as if the wind had picked me up and carried me away.
I felt very small and lonely.
And in reality the realization of the truth discovered
swept over me in a few seconds "

~ 155 ~

" I felt very feverish now.
I felt weak and useless....
All seemed to fit.
And I remembered my dream....

" Had I already lost my innocence?
How....

" Oh God! my soul groaned and I thought that it would burst
and I would die huddled against the evil house.
how had I sinned? "

~ 156 ~

Finally,
a book that means something .

And I'm barely halfway done ..

Yes, I'm a slow reader ..

I'm a writer .
I don't just read the story,
I read the words ..

O and sorry for going a bit over the top on this ..

O and sorry for the delay in getting this out ..
the internet was acting up
.. It was done before one

daydreams on Ghostrider

A computer programmer,
a teacher,
a speech pathologist ..
But what am I ?

" How can I forget you,
when there is always something there to remind me ? "
~ All Saints ~

They say that
we only ever use 10% of our mental capacity ..

I amaze myself ..

An hour and twenty minutes ..
dreams really can come true

. I am a writer .

Score of the Day :
I scored 362685 points
on a Game Involving Balls,
and at one point I had 29 balls out ..
I could have done better,
but all the bananas went off the screen ..
Anyway, can you beat me ??

save it for tomorrow ..

wo.ow

Yesterday was awesome ..

Overview :

• breakfast at Mrs. Knott's .. 2+2+2+2 .. what an odd name for a meal
• almost Ghostrider .. but the line was too long
• almost Log Ride .. but the line was too long
  
• Jaguar! .. this ride is still fun
• Wave Swinger .. you know kids
• Dragon Swing .. the very outside edge, of course
• almost Supreme Scream .. but we changed our minds
• almost Calico Mine Ride .. but the line was too long
  
• Log Ride .. we got log number 23
• almost Perilous Plunge .. but they were having technical difficulties
• Sky Cabin .. how eventful
  
• we split up to Boomerang and Wipeout .. went on Wipeout twice, forward and backward
• Perilous Plunge was up .. went on it for the first time

• lunch at McDonald's .. they were out of ice cream, so I just got fries and a drink
• back at Knott's .. visited the Blacksmith, whom apparently is good friends with Ben
  
• Ben bought two cap guns and 1000 roll caps .. that ought to be fun
  
• almost Ghostrider .. but the line was too long
• almost Bigfoot Rapids .. but the line was too long
• Jaguar! again .. got in the very front this time
• Wilderness Scrambler .. didn't get nearly as dizzy as Wipeout
• Ben spent two dollars on a game of DDR .. but we failed on the first song

• at 5:30, I went home due to a severe case of headache ..
• while I was gone they went on Bigfoot Rapids and the Log Ride again

• at 9:00, I had taken Tylenol and rested and my headache was gone
• just Ben and I went back to Knott's
• after an hour-and-20-minute wait, we finally got onto Ghostrider .. in the very front
• at 10:40, we got over to Perilous Plunge and rode it again .. three times in a row

• I came home wet and very exhausted

This is the second use of bullet points on my blog ..
congratulations if you can find the other one

I have more to say,
but I'll save it for tomorrow

uhm .. i'm fresh out of titles, sorry

Score of the Day :
I scored 10255 points
on Snake Coil,
before my time ran out ..
can you beat me ??

Rocketboom is annoying ..

I have trouble falling asleep ..
It took me two frikken hours last night !
For two hours,
I was just laying there,
trying to sleep ..
just thinking ....



The computer forgot my name today !
And apparently changed my password too !
.. I don't remember it being "incorrect" ..

Uhh .. yea .
That's all I've got for now ..

Maybe I'll post something else
after I return from Knott's ..

Oh wait .
We're staying until 11 .

Soo ..
don't expect to hear from me again today
at all .

That said,
have a nice day
.. colllin "D

.. anything special this time ?

Yea, yesterday was my blog's eight-month anniversary ..
I'm not doing anything special this time

I am going to Knott's tomorrow ..
I haven't been to a theme park in sooo long

Finished a 1500 piece puzzle ..
but one piece is missing
.. Find it for me, please ?

Is it just a coincidence,
or do all talent shows occur on the seventeenth ?

Nothing like a good Spicy Chicken Sandwich
from Carl's Jr ...

Score of the Day :
I beat Streamline
with 2 lives left ..
can you beat me ??

" If you can accept to loseing,
you cannot win "
~ El Dorado Inn ~

. I want my 233 back .

MUAHHAHAHAA
GREEEEEEEN !!

.. but it won't let me change the top part,
so it kind of clashes ..

Oh well,
I'll wait for HTML editing
and see how that turns out ..

I'll probably get sick of it soon enough ..
they don't have the right shades

And I want my 233 back ..

. that ruins my joke .

So .
Blogger switched to Google accounts ..

Yes I switched over,
it wasn't much trouble
as I already had a Google account ..

But there are some changes
that I don't quite like so much .

Christmas Island is now abbreviated CX ..
what kind of an abbreviation is that ?
And that ruins my joke ..

It now displays my name ..
I guess that's okay,
now that I can make my blog private ..
But that ruins my other joke ..

Yea .
I'll be remodeling my sidebar now ..

Score of the Day :
I scored 2365 points on Prehistoric,
and 331 eggs ..
( I still haven't beaten it, but )
can you beat me ??

According to Knowledge,
I should have waited until two days ago
to check up on my New Year's resolutions ..
Oh, well .

Ze also stated that he plans to resign from his show
on Saint Patrick's Day of next year ..

Dang,
I can really relate with this guy ....

. the ultimate test .

"Chasing Cars"
is like the perfect song
for my voice right now ..
It's right up there,
but not too high ..
so it's great practice .

Ball Revamped,
the ultimate test of hand-eye coordination ..
which brings me to the

Score of the Day :
I beat Metaphysik in 491 'seconds'
with 77 d34ths ..
can you beat me ??

I just realized,
this blog is meant to be read only privately,
but it is public ..
so anyone could notice me ..

and read all of my posts,
read these words,
my thoughts ..
without commenting ..

If that be the case,
then come on out, wallflowers ..
drop a line,
tell why you're here ..

Yes,
that means you too .

. some good morals .

^ I don't really know why ^
I have those periods there,
but if I get rid of them now,
it just feels so empty ..
kind of like my feelings for you ..

Tomatoes are growing on me ..

Love is a fragile thing ..

My dad knew Chuck Norris growing up ..

My brother-in-law might teach at Oxford ..
That would be werid ..

Did I miss something,
or did car dealers forget that
it's not 2007 yet !?
I could have said this long ago,
but I forgot .
That seems to happen a lot lately ..

Jigsaw puzzles ..
a fun - and often frustrating -
way to kill time,
and think about life ..

" Are you lost or incomplete ?
Do you feel like a puzzle,
you can't find your missing piece ?
Tell me, how do you feel ?
Well, I feel like they're talking
in a language I don't speak ..
and they're talking it to me .... "
~ Talk by Coldplay ~

" Pieces of a puzzle make funny shapes,
but they all still fit together in the end .. "
~ Nicky Flippers,
Hoodwinked ~

" Humans are designed for many things,
but loneliness is not one of them "
~ Desperate Housewives ~
Yea I watch this show sometimes ..
the end at least,
it has some good morals ..

" And now in disarray,
I think about you everyday .... "
~ Disarray by Ghostbust ~

Folded money ..
bigger and bolder ..

Listening to Panic! again ..
and that exclamation point
is wayy too close to the word ..

By the way,
I guess they don't bother
to bleep anything out after 2:00 ..

Following in Ze's footsteps ..
Leave me a question,
and I'll answer it .

Score of the Day :
I beat Nucleus in 84 moves ..
can you beat me ??

Whenever I say "you,"
I don't necessarily mean you ..
Maybe, maybe not ..
It depends on who you are

. too many ellipses .

I forgot what I wanted to say today ..
*GASP* ! That's never happened before ..
Ah well, let's try another one of these :

Wappa # 3 :
" February "
4 days
5 posts
Pages 17-20 of my journal

Maybe I can still do my third one ....

Wow, I use the word "hat3" a lot ..
That's a pretty strong word ..
I overdramatize too much ..

The difference between then and now ?
Now, I do expect you to understand ..
but, you don't ....

Damn it, I use too many ellipses ..

He is lovely ..
March 23rd ..

So much for hope ..

gosh dang
so sick

I stopped posting on February 23rd ..
I wonder whyy

.....

Permalinks on the sidebar,
scroll down to see

. able to say anything .

Why does my voice quiver when I sing ?

Why is it so tempting ?
I just wana tell her .
everything ..

03230812103411381428
.. numbers ..

" If I lay here,
if I just lay here ..
Would you lie with me
and just forget the world ? "

~ "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol ~
This song says so little ..
yet so much .
.. I'm lovin' it ..

I may not be able to say anything ..
but talk to me .
Please .

Cheer me up ..

. that reminds me of a time in Zobooland .

September took Georgie away ..
and
Ravla wants Lenna back ..

" Where did I go wrong ? I lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness,
and I would have stayed up with you all night
had I known how to save a life "
~ The Fray ~

I want a relationship like that ..
like hers ..

At least her last name isn't Eleventh ..

Oohh, I hat3 this feeling ....

. Ultima works for me .

" So many different thoughts raced through my mind
that I felt dizzy, and very weary and sick ..
My mind searched for answers .. "
~ 22 ~

" I slept .
But even into my deep sleep my dreams came .
In my dream I saw ..
I saw them as I remembered them before ..
which seemed so very long ago ..
I think it was ..
but in the dark mist of the dream I could not be sure .. "
~ 23 ~

" Had it been a dream ?
Or had it been a dream within a dream,
the kind that I often had and which seemed so real ? "
~ 28 ~

" Today my thoughts kept my soul in a shroud .. "
~ 30 ~

" We walked together and I thought about what she had said .
I knew she was right ..
But I want to know,
there are so many things I want to know ..

" If a person really wants to know,
then he will listen and see and be patient .
Knowledge comes slowly --

" I walked along, thinking about what she had said "
~ 31 ~

" After that I did not tell her about my dreams,
and they remained in me forever and ever .... "
~ 4 ~

.. Ravla ..
. I will never let go .

. a load of guilt .

Corinne got an iPod !!
.. and all I got yesterday
was a load of guilt ..

Passing the time
on gPrime ..
Hey, that rhymes !

I have a really big appetite ..

Sometimes I get the feeling
that apologies are inadequate ..

Should I get contacts ?
Give me your honest opinion if you can ..
but now I'm not sure if I can expect that ..

I sigh too much ..

* sigh *

I hear you ..
but do I listen ?

" In dreams,
we enter a world all our own ..
Let him swim in the deepest ocean,
or glide over the highest cloud .. "

~ Prof . A . Dumbledore,
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban ~

. never quite learned .

Anaya said it for me :

" I have been writing for the past ten years .
I have written volumes of poems, stories, novels ....
Writing is not easy .
It is a lonely, and oftentimes unappreciated endeavor .
But I had to keep creating,
I had to keep trying to organize all the beautiful, chaotic things into some pattern .
Writing is never quite learned .... "

~ All the beautiful, chaotic things .... ~

. Hangaroo is fun .



Imma try to do most of my writing offline from now on,
because this darned timer is getting to be quite the pain ..
So don't be surprised if I don't post for a few days in a row or something ..

I will try to still post something,
but I can only stand so much ....

. what scares me the most .

You know what scares me the most ?
When I can't fight it anymore,
when it takes over,
when I totally lose control ..
I like it .

~ from the movie Hulk ~
I love it .

Incidentally,
Ze Frank also celebrated his 100th show yesterday ..
Wow . What a coincidence .

Six degrees of separation ..
I believe it .

Find this guy ....

" In a perfect world,
you and I probably wouldn't exist,
so let's not hope for one "

This is Colllin,
biting Ze Frank,
and thinking so
you don't have to .

.....

I look forward to sleeping,
so I can dream of you .
~
I've been looking to you for answers,
but now I realize
I've known them all along .
~
It's like my subconscious
is tryna tell me something ..
but what if I dunwana listen ?

. some new vocabulary .

I have blisters .
on my feet ..

Only two things make me sweat .
DDR and grrls ..

Censorship is pretty dumb ..

I was listening to "U and Dat"
last night on kDay ..
( I don't usually listen to kDay,
but nothing else was on )
and they blocked out 'monkey' .

Since when is monkey a bad word ?!
I mean, I know it's a euphemism ..
But anyone who knows that will know what word it is even if it is censored ..
And anyone who doesn't will just wonder why they blocked it out,
when if they didn't then they would have just thought the song was about a monkey !

I think they've kinda missed the point of censorship ..
Wasn't the original point to prevent little kids from hearing the bad words ?
Kids like to hear about monkeys .
It's not a bad word to them ..

Maybe "U and Dat" was their favorite song before, from some other radio station,
and they never really thought about what it really meant ..
but now that it's censored,
kDay has basically just taught them a new bad word .

But they don't block out 'booty' ..
Doesn't it seem like that would be a smarter choice,
if they had to block out one of them ?
I mean, they shouldn't block out either one really ..
b/c booty could mean pirate's treasure
- AARR ! -

I didn't even know what it meant until I heard this song ..
Hey Mom, I learned what a monkey is !

* sigh *

Savvy ?

Speaking of Pirates,
I still haven't gotten to see that movie ..
ggrrrrr ..
I want to !

.. Ah, well .

This has been Colllllllin with his 100th post,
hoping you have a great rest-of-the-summer,
and may censorship teach you some new vocabulary .

8b..

. I think I'll start it over .

" I think I'll go to Boston,
I think I'll start a new life ..
I think I'll start it over,
where no one knows my name .. "

" I'll get out of California,
I'm tired of the weather ..
I think I'll get a lover,
and fly her out to Spain .. "

" I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired ..
I think I need a new town,
to leave this all behind .. "

" I think I need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset ..
I hear it's nice in the summer,
some snow would be nice .. "

" Boston ..
where no one knows my name .... "

.. turns out Augustana thinks a lot t0o ..

~ You don't know me,
you don't even care .. ~

~ You don't know me,
you don't wear my chains .. ~

. the best way we survive .

" Let me know that I've done wrong,
when I've known this all along .. "

" When we live such fragile lives,
it's the best way we survive .. "

" I go around a time or two,
just to waste my time with you .. "

" Tell me all that you've thrown away ..
Find out games you don't wanna play ..
You are the only one that needs to know "

" Who has to know
the way she feels inside,
those thoughts I can't deny ?
These sleeping dogs won't lie,
and all I've tried to hide
is eating me apart .. "

Trace this life out .

" I'll keep you my dirty little secret ..
Don't tell anyone, or you'll be just another regret ..
Hope that you can keep it,
my dirty little secret .. "

Who has to know ?

. a montage of thoughts in dreamland .

" You're a hard nut to cr4ck "
~ my sister, of me ~

" One of the most
infuriating habits
of these people
was their love
of superfluous words "
~ Things Fall Apart ~

" Right Here "
~ Staind ~

" One Week "
~ Barenak3d Ladies ~

The dreams ..
This is the third night in a row ..
Now I'm having second thoughts ..

Who is she .. ?

I'm confused ..

. thinking bilingually .

Wappa # 2 :
" January "
6 days
8 posts
Pages 8-16 of my journal

As some of you know already,
my New Year's resolutions
didn't turn out quite as planned ..

I still have most of the same pet peeves .
Todavi'a me duele tanto .
I still type bilingually,
and I still love athe music ..

I'm still keeping that diary,
and just about as pathetic as I was back then .
Yes I spell my name with seven L's,
and no one can steal my 8b..

SAD turned out rather .. sad .
And thanks a lot, Rona,
for convincing me not to ki11 myse1f .

I write my own songs now
( Imma prolly post one soon ),
instead of just biting them from others ..
but I still love "Obsession" ..

. but I have more .

Wappa # 1 :
" December "
4 days
7 posts
Pages 1-7 of my journal

This was the beginning ..

I created my blog on December Seventeenth .
The 1337 titles were just for a little added spice .
I've stopped using AIM Express by now,
but my AIM is still pretty crappy ..
My parents blocked MySpac3 .
DM stands for delayed messenger .
And I'm still hangin' in there .

That ice skating event was fun ..
I'd like to do that again .
But not for the skating ..

This may be one of the
best analogies I have written ..
but I have more .

.....

I created this blog to discover myself ..
but what I have discovered
is everything I never imagined myself to be .

I had a dream last night,
I was with
the grrl of my dreams
- no pun intended -
but ..
she wasn't who I expected her to be ..

Transmitado en espanol en SAP

Ay,
amor me duele tanto ..

El corazo'n quema
del vaci'o que lo contiene ..

Pero
lo que no nos mata,
nos mejora .

Entonces, voy a estar contento
pero primer,
una cancio'n :

Yeah, she caught my eye
as we walked on by ..
She could see from my face
that I was fxcking high ..
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
but we shared a moment that will last till the end

....

Do you ever try to drink a glass of water,
and just totally miss your mouth,
and have it go all over your shirt ?
Or is that just me ?
Is it some kind of metaphor for life ?

" Initiative is to success what
a lighted match is to a candle "

believing in yourself

" If you was hit by a truck
and you was lying out there in the gutter dying,
and you had time to sing one song....
One song that people would remember before you're dirt.
One song that would let God know how you felt about your time here on Earth.
One song that would sum you up.
You telling me that's the song you'd sing?
That same tune we hear on the radio all day,
about your peace within,
and how it's real,
and how you're gonna shout it?
Or... would you sing something different.
Something real.
Something you felt.
'Cause I'm telling you right now,
that's the kind of song people want to hear.
That's the kind of song that truly saves people.
It ain't got nothing to do with believing in God, Mr. Cash.
It has to do with believing in yourself. "
~ Walk the Line ~

I watched Radio .
It was so sad ..
I nearly cried while watching it ..,
but not because of the movie ....

I have made some little changes ..
minor details .., look around .

I beat Four Second Frenzy in 233 seconds .
What a coincidence ....
I beat Fury too, but I dun remember my time ..

What . A . Coincidence .

That's wack ..

what IS in a name ??

I like this larger font ..
This is what I started out using,
Iono how I switched at some point ..
But I like this better,
even though it is hardly different at all,
so I'll keep it .

I watched Walk the Line .
.. another great love story ..

Thank goodness for Arby's .

I love Ravla <3

Every day I have this song
Stuck in my head
Stuck in my head
With just one day left of summer school
She's on my mind
She's on my mind
. The Fray .

Once again,
I have fallen for a grrl I can't have ..
I prolly won't evern see her again after tomorrow,
unless ....

Well anyway, I've started writing again .
I've taken a break from my journal to think about things,
but I finally found that story I had lost
that I started in seventh grade .
Maybe I'll post some of it for you guys
if you're good ....

I prolly won't see any of my new friends after tomorrow !
I need phone numbers !
I need a phone !!
LOL
I'm sad !! :[

the greatest post ever written

Guess what !!
Now, for your convenience and reading ease,
I shall write bigger ..
Although this may not last very long,
but we'll see how it goes ..

I watched The Greatest Game Ever Played
.. I never knew golf could be so intense ..

I have decided to wait a few days to start Wapparoatomm,
because I have decided that
at the moment, talking about my past
is not so much important as talking about the now ..

[ Figuring Out What Love is
( Fowl ) : The Precursor ]

What is love ??

Wiktionary ranks it as
the 179th most frequent word in the English language,
and the American Heritage Dictionary alone
supplies it with eighteen different meanings ..

But the denotation is not enough .

What is the connotation ?
What do you consider "love" ?

How long does it take ?
How long do you have to like someone first ?
At what point can you say that you love them ?

Who invented the word "love" ?

I can't possibly write much more ..

But I'll end it with a light-hearted comment :
Love is like a Mother's Day present .
She doesn't just want you to give it to her,
she would appreciate it more if you made it .

Keep on pondering ..
it's good for you .
I think .