ease the pain i feel for you today

" Repercussions of an Illness Undefined "
( Part Five of a Secret that Never Grows Old )
[ from the fifth night of February ]

I feel sick to my stomach
I told her, I don't think I should go to school today
I feel about to plummet
I told her, I don't think I should do my chores today
My head is spinning
I told her, I don't believe I slept a wink last night
My ears are ringing
And pounding, never guna give me a minute's break
My eyes are red, the tears are shed
My feet ache, I can barely walk
My throat is hoarse, I can hardly talk
Like the sound of screeching chalk
It is hard to lift my arms
I am so congested, indigestion, heartburn
It hurts to move at all
I think I sense internal bleeding
I will be needing some assistance
Or maybe just a good full hour of sleep

Worse in the morning
When I'm older, I know I'll find a cure to all of this
Tossing and turning
Getting colder, I know there's something more to all of this
I feel horrible
Horrible
But it all means nothing
Compared to the pain
I feel for you today
And I told her, I don't think I should talk to you today
With every word, it only worsens the pain
I feel for you today
But you insisted, or maybe I just like to think it's that way
I don't look at it as heartbreak, but another chance
It's horrible
Horrible
I wish I could see that it's nothing
Only another one of those passing hopes
A whim, a few loose dreams
Emotion gone astray
There's nothing more to say to you
I've said it all, but still there's something 1ingering
Fluttering away, a thought
A whim, a few loose dreams
I'm on my way to nothing but yet another failure
I wish you would care
Could ease the pain
I feel for you today

" Pain is weakness leaving the body . "
True that !!
I must be pretty strong by now, then .