going back to a classic painmonger

" Because Of You "
by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust
not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break,
when it wasn't even whole to start with
.....

I watched you die,
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young,
you should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
for the same d4mn thing

Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I am afraid

~~~~~

" Saying I love you
is not the words I want to hear from you .
It's not that I want you not to say,
but if you only knew ... "
~ More Than Words ~