the urge to tell her the truth

( Part Two of a Secret that Never Grows Old )
[ from the 26th night of January ]

What do you do
when your dreams
keep leading you
back to her ?

What do you do
when your subconscious
will not listen ?

Why can you never
get over the fact
that it's over ?

Why do you hang
on the possibility
that it is not ?

How do you convince yourself
to let go ?

How do you resist
the urge to tell her
how you really feel ?

Why does she always
stand out
above the rest ?

How can you keep a secret,
when it is the very thing
tearing you apart ?

How can you let it out,
when you know it will only
ruin you once again ?

How do you describe
these feelings ?
How can you hold them in ?

How do you explain the way
you just know,
somehow it will work out ?

Why are you so confident,
when all the odds
are against you ?

How do you get her
to trust you,
when she has put all her trust
in him ?

How do you tell her
that you care,
without getting in the way ?

How do you talk about it ?
What can you confide ?

How do you ask for Help,
when you're not sure
who you can trust ?

" Something inside me still wants to do [ it ] ..
even though I complain a lot . "
~ Do you really want the recognition ? ~