although I ought to think 17 times

I saw her .
Right now .
At 7:28 .

My heart is beating soo fast .
My mind is racing like no other .

Should I go back ?
Does she remember me ?
Would she care ?
Could I risk the consequences ?
Can I handle the pressure ?

" Most people have the will to win,
few have the will to prepare to win . "
~ Bobby Knight ~

I let Fate make the hard choices for me .

~~~~~

A half an hour later ...
It is dark now .

I feel bad for wasting another opportunity,
but I know ...
Or, I did know ...

Now I think twice .
Although I ought to think 17 times .

I am afraid
I will run out of chances .
That one of these times,
or one that has yet passed,
will be the last .
That I will run out of ways
to compensate .

She looked at me .
Though not nearly as much
as I looked at her,
and she certainly did not have
the same longing in her eyes .
Hers was replaced
by a twinkle .