the way psychology sometimes works in reverse

I never knew something so simple, could be so difficult .
I never knew it could take so long, to do what I know is right .
I never knew the truth could be so hard to express .
I never knew one person could have such an impact on me,
especially when I probably created half of my own drama .
I never knew silence could overpower communication .
Do you see what I mean ?
Do you understand what I am trying to do ?
Do you really see why this is all so important ?
I don't want this to end badly again .
I would hat3 for you to misunderstand me at this point .
This pain has become unbearable .
Please, try to help to make this work .
Try to want this as much as I do .
Try to trust me; try to let me trust you .
Try to do what we both know is right .
My memory has overpowered me .
My emotion is beginning to waste away .
I am afraid of what I will turn into .
I am fading away from reality .
I am losing touch with the world .
I have begun to forget what it feels like to know who I am .
My identity is fragile; its theft has proven inevitable .
Please, aid me in this time of need .
I would be a fool to say I want you,
but I would be lying if I said I didn't need you .
What do you expect me to do ?
What do you want from me ?
Should I change who I am, simply because he has made a mistake ?
I shouldn't have to .
Should I find a new course in life, simply because I have met a de4d end ?
I shouldn't think so .
Should I pass up this opportunity, when it is my very last chance ?
I shouldn't dare to .
Should I change my mind, even though it is my heart what is hurting me ?
I shouldn't consider it .
Should I keep from you this secret, when I know I must reveal the truth ?
I won't lie to you .
I have never felt so strongly about anything in my life .
I have never felt this urge so badly .
I have never had such an impediment to explaining what it means .
It means everything .
That is the closest I can get to accuracy .
I can only suppose that you will not want to believe me .
This is the closest I can get to trying to persuade you otherwise .
This is the closest I have been, to discovering who I ought to be .
Yet I am my farthest from discovering who I desire to become .
The most powerful emotions are those that cannot be described .
The most notwithstanding love is that which is ever forb1dden .
The more they tell me to stop, the more I want to keep going .
It's a funny thing, the way psychology sometimes works in reverse .

" Anyone who tries to find the thing
that makes him happy, is no coward . "
~ Reba ~