a handful of random rants on the world, collected over the past few weeks or so

Sadies was fairly uneventful ..
Well, at least it wasn't the worst dance I've ever been to .
Or maybe it was ..
But I have gotten so used to pain,
I have forgotten what else lies beyond .

I have forgotten how to cry .
No matter how hard I try,
it just doesn't work anymore .

I have gotten myself into the mindset that,
whoever it is I am going to spend my life with,
I have already met her .
And it scares me to think this might not
( and probably will not ) be true .
haha but change excites me, right ...

It's so unnerving, so discomforting,
so frustrating, so infuriating, so megagaltastic;
that I could always do it perfectly in practice,
but the one time it actually counts for anything,
I screw the whole thing up .

Fate is really testing my patience this time .

Nerves were an invention by fate,
to make people weaker and more susceptible to failure .
Fate has to get its way somehow .

If the human race were to have a climax,
it will probably be at some point in our lifetimes .
Everything is growing so rapidly these days,
it is only a matter of time
before it all blows up in our faces .

Some people believe war is the absence of peace .
I believe peace is the absence of war .
So, in order to achieve world peace ?
We don't need to make peace !
No, we need to take back war .
I am fairly proud of myself for this point .

Fate .. Destiny ..
I don't believe that they necessarily
have a hand in everything;
but they definitely play a major part
in the whole determination thing ...

I cannot commit .. It is too simple .
I am masochistic .. I need it to be hard .

It doesn't matter what you say .
It matters what you mean .
But no one else knows what you mean to say ...
So say what you mean, and mean what you say ..
and then they will understand that you matter after all .

" This, too, shall pass . "

" It can't be helped . "

Four words are all you need,
to feel better about yourself .

Catching up on the holidays ..
( again, haha .. I am such a cheater .
( but at least now you know I didn't forget ..
( I just don't care quite enough to get you anything,
( besides this XD ) :
fe06 . kass .
fe10 . SADance .. more fun than WtFormal .
fe11 . taylor .
fe14 . SADay .. don't remind me ..
fe15 . maria .
fe17 . sean . and OA Idol .. that was fun .
fe19 . lokesha . and President's Day ! hooray .
( grrr .. I know I missed a few .
( but I don't wana guess, sorry . )

I need a break, from life ...